So I finally decided to get up off my ass and start trying to do something with my life. It felt great actually. Better than I thought it would. I applied at Bath and Body Works and for a phlebotomy position at the blood bank by my house. The manger said she loved me and would send in a personal recommendation for me to work on the blood mobile the city next to the city I live in since they personally weren’t hiring. Bath and Body works starts out at minimum wage while the phlebotomy job starts out at 10 bucks and hour plus an extra dollar an hour because I have to travel around the city. So hopefully I hear back from them and hopefully my trip at the end of June won’t interfere with my getting the job. Wish me luck <3

Not tumblr of coarse but no facebook, no friends, no boyfriend, nothing. Just gonna focus in myself today and see what I can get done. First thing: make breakfast second thing: clean car inside and out. Annnnnnnd go!

One week to examine my life and come up with a plan. I’m taking one week of ignoring everyone one but family and friends I consider to be family. I’m taking one week to clean and get things ready because I WILL start applying for a job so that I can work while I put together a business plan to pitch to my dad. Me and Eddie are fighting and honestly that man has pissed me off so bad this time that I’m taking a personal break from him. I need to reexamine what I want out of life. He needs to realize he isn’t irreplaceable. I’m done dealing with everyone and what they think I should be doing with my life. I’m gonna take a deep deep breathe and just breathe and take life and its forever changing ways one step at a time and that is my promise to myself. I come first, family second, and boyfriends can come third. I hope Eddie can support through this but we will see.